Wednesday, February 18, 2015

1 month with Tatum

Has it already been 1 month since I had my little bundle of joy?? Seriously where did the time even go?! I can honestly say I have never been happier in my life than I am right now. Ive also never been more exhausted in my life, but I look into her eyes as I am feeding her or changing her at 4:00 in the morning, with my eyes barley open, and I get an overwhelming feeling of love and joy for this little girl. The exhaustion is totally worth it, the zombie like person I have turned into over the past few weeks, it's worth it, it's all worth it! Because I have the greatest gift you could ever even ask for.

This past month has been life changing, from the fact that I now have a tiny human to care for, to getting used to things I never even thought of having to get used too. Like breast feeding, wow, to be honest I have had a hard time with breast feeding,  Everyone warned me that it hurts at first, but no one told me how much it hurts! OUCH is all I have to say, also she has a really hard time latching, we both get frustrated. luckily, she takes bottles reeeaaally well, so pumping has become my new thing. I'm always hooked up to the pump, but its ok because its getting my little one the milk she needs to grow healthy and strong! Which she is, I see her growing a little bit everyday, it breaks my heart a little because before I know it she won't be this tender little newborn baby anymore. She eventually won't rely on me to do everything for her, it makes me so sad to think about, but it also makes me happy for the adventures to come!

getting used to her has honestly been a breeze, she is the best baby! I am so blessed to have her, she has changed me in so many ways. I feel bad because I know some moms have horrible labors, or colicky babies, and my labor was pretty easy and my baby is the best! Like what newborn baby do you know that sleeps through the night? I feed her at 11:00 pm and she doesn't wake up till 6 or 7 am to feed again, and then she sleeps till 10-11! She doesn't cry unless she is hungry, she loves to snuggle me, and she is so strong! She could lift her head up and look at me the day she was born! That was mind blowing, and now at 1 month old, she can full on hold her head up for 30 seconds to a minute! I just am in aw of her everyday, I can't stop staring at her and kissing her beautiful face! She is honestly a blessing, and I am so lucky.

 A few of my favorite things she does: 

  • snuggles me
  • sleeps on my chest after I burp her
  • her smiles
  • her strength
  • when I kiss her on the lips she smacks her lips together and makes a clicking noise
  • the the noises she makes when she dreams
  • when she smiles in her sleep
  • when she grasps my finger
  • her squeals 
  • she stops crying the minute I hold her
 A few of her favorite things: 
  • being held (not so much since she got her swing)
  • cuddles
  • bath time
  • car rides
  • her swing (OBSESSED is a better word)
  • her binky 
  • squeezing my finger
  • her soft blankets
  • and of course her momma and daddy :)
Something funny I noticed, she used to LOVE being held all the time, she would be sleeping in my arms and the second I put her down she would fuss. We got this swing from target, and she fell in love with it! no joke, she doesn't fuss or cry in it at all! she just relaxes and looks around until she is rocked to sleep. Now I will be holding her and she starts fussing because she wants to be in her swing! It makes me sad because I want to hold her haha but its good too cause now I can get things done! So swings are life saving, but they also take your cuddle time from your baby so its bitter sweet!





























Saturday, January 17, 2015

Birth story

On January 2nd, 2015 my whole life changed in such an amazing way, I became a mother to the most gorgeous baby girl I have ever laid eyes on. Seriously she is so amazing, and I fall more in love with her everyday.

New years Eve I started to have pretty minor but consistent contractions, I really wanted to try to have her at midnight on new years day! But hey what mom wouldn't want that right? Anyways, we went to dinner with our friends Seth and Rachel Lasater, still having contractions but nothing serious. I was getting super impatient, we went back to my moms house and watched "Lets be cops", ate chocolate covered strawberries, and watched the ball drop. Still nothing happened, so my hopes of having a new years baby passed. I didn't even care, I was just eager to meet this little girl! I was up all night with contractions that were 7 minutes apart. I woke up Logan and we both decided to go to the hospital. When we got there they checked me in a room and checked my cervix and all that jazz. I was dilated to a 3 and 90% effaced, they told me they would check me again in an hour to see if I was dilated more and was in active labor.

An hour passed and they checked me once more, I hadn't had any changes, so sadly they sent me home. I was super bummed, and was still having uncomfortable contractions all day long. Later that night we went to Buffalo Wild Wings with all our friends, like we do every Thursday. My friend Kenna was determined to get this baby out, so she really wanted me to drink Castor oil. She said it worked for both her sister in laws. I was already in pre-labor so I thought what the heck lets do it! We went back to their house and I drank 4 ounces of Castor oil like a champ! It was horrible, but now it was time to see if this would really work! We went home around 11:00 and I was having pretty bad stomach cramps, which is what Castor oil does to you, and it is not fun! I tried to sleep through the stomach pain and eventually I fell asleep for about an hour. Around 1:00 AM my water broke, I woke up Logan and he jumped out of bed and got everything ready. I was completely shocked and couldn't believe I was going to meet my baby girl!

When I pictured labor I always thought I would be in the hospital for hours upon hours in pain and misery. That's how most first time labors go for women anyways, oddly enough that was not the case for me. I was in labor for only 4 1/2 hours! I had this whole idea and plan in my head of how my labor was going to go, I wanted to relax after my epidural and get some sleep, my friends and family would come and visit and chat with me for a little bit, and I wanted to have Kenna take birth pictures. I really wanted to document this whole experience, But my labor went so fast that there was just no time to do any of that, I didn't even get to rest at all!

We got to the hospital around 1:15 AM, they checked me and I was dilated to a 4. I started to have really really painful contractions, I mean they hurt so bad that I was constantly throwing up from the pain. My contractions were 15 seconds apart, and my doctor that was doing my epidural decided to take 45 minutes to get down to my room. I was in so much pain, but I held it together and fought through it. Finally my doctor arrived, and I was so relieved, I didn't even feel my epidural because I was having horrible contractions the whole time. Almost Instantly I felt relief, it was so amazing! I do not know how women do it natural! Now was the time I thought I could catch up on some rest and just relax. My nurse checked me and I jumped from a 4 to a 7 in 45 minutes which was pretty fast! they didn't even put me on pitocin or anything! But they said usually the epidural slows things down a bit and she would check me again in thirty minutes. Logan and my sister decided to go get some food because they were so hungry. My nurse checked me again and said "um where is your husband? Hopefully not too far" I told her they just ran to Mc Donald's to get some food. She told me to call them and have them get here pronto. I had jumped from a 7 to a 10 in 30 minutes! I couldn't believe it, it was all happening so fast! Logan and my sister got back just in time, I was in the middle of doing practice pushing, which they had to tell me to stop because the baby was coming and my doctor wasn't here yet!

Finally, my doctor showed up, and she was blown away by the fact that I was having this baby so fast!  I pushed for maybe 3 minutes and our sweet baby girl was here! It was crazy because I honestly didn't feel a thing while pushing. I constantly kept asking if I was even doing anything because I couldn't feel anything! The second I saw her I burst into tears. It was such a surreal feeling actually seeing her and putting it together that I carried her in my stomach for 9 months. I looked at Logan and his eyes wouldn't leave her, and he had the biggest smile on his face, and tears in his eyes. I was overwhelmed with emotions, and I was just so in love with my little family. They put her on my chest and I just held her and cried, tears of joy and happiness, Logan cut the umbilical cord and then grabbed my hand and we just sat there and soaked it all in.

The room exploded with all the family members, they were all so excited and happy that she was finally here! they took her and bathed her, and got her all cleaned up, and handed her back to me. I just still couldn't believe she was mine, she was the most amazing early birthday present I could ask for! Our birthdays are just 1 day apart, {sorry dad} I couldn't be more obsessed with her. Logan is the most amazing dad and husband, he is always helping me and just gushes over her all the time. I am so incredibly blessed to have the two of them as my family.

Tatum Nicole Vickery born January 2nd, 2015 at 4:57 AM, weighing 6 pounds 15 ounces, and measuring 19 inches long. She is perfect in every way, welcome to the world baby girl! we love you more than you will ever even know!



















Tuesday, January 13, 2015

Slacker..

So obviously I didn't do a very good job of blogging about my pregnancy... {oops} And as you all know I had my beautiful baby girl on January 2nd, 2015! So in my own way of catching up, I am just going to post pictures from the months I missed!

I will say that I was truly blessed during my pregnancy, I was never sick, and had no pregnancy complications. Other than the fact that at 30 weeks she was measuring really small, so I had to do NST test (non-stress tests) every week until I delivered. Which isn't ideal, but hey if that's the worst, I can't complain! I have a beautiful, healthy little girl, and I couldn't be more happy!

I got pretty attached to my bump, so I am super happy I took plenty of pictures to document!


 October 










 November 













 December